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Under €5: Aldi Stuffed Peppers

Under €5: Aldi Stuffed Peppers

Hey guys, people always say it costs too much to eat healthy so I’ve decided to start an Under €5 series. Healthy dinners that cost under €5 per person to make. So kickstarting this with Stuffed Peppers with all the ingredients from Aldi! Ingredients: (4 […]

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Staycation: Kerry

Staycation: Kerry

This week I had a friend come visit me in Ireland, so I was on a mini staycation in Kerry while she was over. I actually hadn’t seen my friend Tammy since May 2016, the last time I was over in London. We stayed out […]

Life After Mental Illness

Life After Mental Illness

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2 weeks before being diagnosed with depression.  Smiles can be deceiving.

 

When I was 26, I was diagnosed with depression. I got help from my doctor, took the anti-depressants, did counselling sessions, and now as I’m about to turn 29 I no longer suffer with depression.

This wasn’t a journey of that I did everything that I was meant to do and I was fine the whole time, I had periods where I would be all over the place and fall into a deep depression and take myself weeks to get back on track.

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Now in 13 days, I turn 29 and have been thinking about life after mental illness. I feel robbed by depression, I lost the last few years of my twenties. I should have been out enjoying my life with my friends, instead I couldn’t face leaving the bed, let alone my house. Not to focus on the negative, I did however discover a love for reading. I would easily go through 3 books a week. It was my escape. Jump into a different world.

I feel scared, when I have a bad day, my brain spirals into “is it back?”. Everyone has bad days but guess I’m not used to bad days that don’t spiral into the worst place possible. So every time I have a bad day, all I can think is the depression is back. Which I know people might think is just an irrational thought but I can’t shake that thought, maybe as time passes the fear of relapse will pass too.

I have the memories of being unable to get out of bed, unable to shower because my body was just a carcass that my mind was trapped inside, I remember all the suicidal thoughts, the attempted overdose, and the breakdowns. I can’t erase that from my brain no matter how much I’d like to forget the last few years.

I spent a few weeks wondering “who am I without depression?”. I spent over a year talking about mental health online that it never occurred to me that one day I’d be rid of depression. I guess when you’re suffering, it’s hard to think of a place where you are free.

So what’s next?

Well this week I am going on a mini break with a friend who is visiting Ireland. It’s a staycation for me, but I haven’t been on any sort of break in over 2 years so I can’t wait and I get to see a friend who I haven’t seen since I was 26!

I have some other things planned too but once they’re official I’ll talk more about them ♥

 

 

 

Trichotillomania – Hair Pulling Caused by More Than Stress by Ariel Taylor

Trichotillomania – Hair Pulling Caused by More Than Stress by Ariel Taylor

  *This is not a sponsored post*   Trichotillomania is described as compulsive hair pulling and is a complex condition. Contrary to popular belief, it is not triggered by stress and anxiety alone. In addition, it is far more common than people think. The degree […]

Slimming World: Week 2

Slimming World: Week 2

    Hey guys, Another week, another weigh in. This week was hard, I have not been sleeping well at all. Having those horrible nights when your body is completely exhausted but your brain just won’t switch off. Which has completely affected my productivity and […]

Slimming World: Week 1

Slimming World: Week 1

Hey guys, so if you saw last week I posted that I joined Slimming World and that I would be doing a weekly blog about it.

It actually has been fine, I thought I’d be starving but surprisingly I am not.

I’ve had sausages, bacon and eggs most mornings, light lunch and have had big dinners. This week I’ve made Sweet Potato Beef Fajitas, Spaghetti Bolognese with a butt loads of pasta, Mexican Chicken, BBQ Chicken, Vegan Burgers, etc.

So I was kinda skeptical when I went to weigh in, I was sure I would have lost nothing or maybe gained weight… Nope

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I lost 1.5lbs on my first week.

I will admit that I kinda threw the plan out the window at the weekend and drank way too much beer on Saturday watching the football and then Sunday I was too hungover to cook and got a Snack Box from the takeaway and then ate pasta and cheese before bed.

The weekend was just a write-off.

I’m sure we’ve all had one of those weekends!

On Monday, I got straight back into the plan. I will say one thing is that meal planning is very important. Today I am planning out my dinners for the next 5 days. Though I’m gonna pick up a few Slimming World meals from Iceland and pop them in the freezer because I can guarantee life will interfere and one of those dinners I’m planning won’t happen.

Next weigh in is on Thursday so I hope to see the number on the scale continue to go down.

Blue x

 

Taking The First Step

Taking The First Step

I did it, I went to my first Slimming World group last night. I was a little bit nervous just as a do have social anxiety but I wasn’t going on my own so that made it a little easier, though when I got there […]

Easy Egg Bake

Easy Egg Bake

Check out my latest video! My Easy Egg Bake ♥

Spicy Beef Udon Stir Fry

Spicy Beef Udon Stir Fry

Spicy Beef Udon Stir Fry

Depression: I Beat It

Depression: I Beat It

It is possible. I did it. I knew I didn’t feel right in myself during April and May in 2016. I was a mess. Mood swings, feeling helpless, wanting to hide away and breaking down. I used to cry into my dogs fur late at […]


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Revenge Body: An Unhealthy Obsession

Revenge Body: An Unhealthy Obsession

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“Looking great is always the best revenge,” – Khloe Kardashian

Type “revenge body” into Google and the first thing that comes up is Khloe Kardashian and how her show empowers women. I completely disagree. Even the term “revenge body” is a negative term. Even look at the top definition of it on Urban Dictionary:

When you break up with someone, usually a cheating piece of shit who really wasn’t worth your time and you work your ass off to look the best you can just to piss him/her off and make them regret their poor choices.
Can’t wait until he sees this revenge body, he’s going to regret fucking that hoe and losing me.”

 

I watched Revenge Body with Khloe Kardashian before I wrote this. This show seems ridiculous, just praising Khloe Kardashian for her looks and realistically she didn’t just lose weight and eat right, these are rich people who have had plastic surgery. One of the first things she asks the participants of the show is “Who is the person you want to get revenge on?” that is completely toxic. They whole idea of a revenge body is toxic. This is not the right motivation to get in shape. Khloe has said this show is to transform you spiritually and emotionally as well as a physical transformation but what bothers me the most is the participants citing family members, ex boyfriends, and friends as their reason to get “revenge”.

Speaking from my own personal experiences, I was called fat by friends and told by family members I was heavy, which I was. I never went to seek revenge on them because that is an extremely unhealthy mindset. I reached a point in my life when I decided for myself that I needed to make a change. Which I did, I didn’t do it for anyone but myself. You should never do anything that isn’t for yourself. Never change for anyone.

In my opinion, a “revenge body” is completely unhealthy. You may transform yourself on the outside but what about on the inside? How is your mental health if you are focusing on transforming yourself because of someone else? Do you think your ex will want you back because you are now thinner? Why would you want them back in your life if they only want you back because you are now aesthetically pleasing to them?

Instead of focusing on getting a revenge body, focus on moving on. Focus on yourself.