The best way for me to cope is to blog. It started again a week ago.
My mood is low, I don’t want to do anything. I don’t even want to watch tv. It’s 3:50pm on a Wednesday and I’m in bed with the lights off, curtains closed, just laying down in the darkness. Things are going wrong all over the place and I’m spiralling. I keep trying to pull myself up and keep myself together but I can feel the pieces breaking.
There are somethings going on that I can’t talk about and somethings I just don’t want to talk about. I feel some friendships with people breaking and I know I’m the problem so I’m trying not to lose those. Trying to keep the pieces together.
It’s hard. I feel sad, alone and lost. To stay in the room or to get up?