“Why are you doing this?”
If you follow me on social media you will see that I am once again raising money for charity. I’m raising money for shelter dogs, this is the 2nd year in a row that I have done this. Earlier in the year I raised money for MacMillian Cancer Support and Women’s Aid.
I was asked yesterday by a friend “why are you doing this?” and “why do you keep focussing on charities when you need to focus on yourself.”. These questions came out of a place of love. My close friends see my struggles more than people on Facebook and Twitter, but I have a simple answer.
Depression sometimes makes me feel so worthless, I loathe myself, I don’t want to blog, I don’t want to workout, I don’t even want to get up out of bed. My mind can get consumed with dark thoughts of suicide and the way I see it is I have 2 options: give in or fight. I choose the latter.
So when I hate myself, I try to focus on other things till I can find myself again. I usually choose raising money for charity or helping someone out privately online. Helping others helps me get control back of my life. So I’m sorry if all the donation pages annoy you but I’d rather try and help someone else when I’m struggling to help myself.
If you would like to donate to the shelter dogs for Christmas