I have been thinking about over Christmas the things I will never have.
I will never have a lifelong partner because when I tried to date with depression, I had bad spells and he never spoke to me again.
I will never have a child for the fear my depression is hereditary. Several members of my family have it.
I will never gain confidence because I fear everything, half the time I think my family are embarrassed of me.
I apologised to my family when I spoke about mental health on radio in case they were embarrassed of me.
I fear I will be the loser of my family and my nephews and nieces will never know how much I love them though it’s hard for me to see them cuz my anxiety branches out to my family.
I feel I will never belong