“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” – Albus Dumbledore.
You know how everyone starts January with the “New Year, New Me” mentality. I didn’t. I personally hate the “New Year, New Me” bullshit. I don’t need to start the year with a “new” version of myself. I am taking all of me into a new year, even the crazy parts and I’m taking it step by step to fix those. It’s “New Year, same me but happier”.
Do you know what it’s like for a person with depression who is used to getting bad spells every 2-3 weeks to not have a single bad day in 31 days. It’s weird as fuck. I almost feel guilty that I’m happy. Now, don’t get me wrong I’ve had normal bad days but not a depressive bad day.
I’ve taken this month slow, trying to exercise as frequently as my knee will allow me. I’ve told myself that it is ok to distance myself from the people who do bring me down. I’ve been blogging, cooking and being snap happy with my camera and I feel great. I’m also embracing the mute and block button on Twitter! If I make it to March like this I am actually going to ask for a decrease in my medication.
You don’t need to be a new version of yourself.
I’ve found my love for life this month.
I turned the light on, all you need to do is turn on yours.
♥ Blue ♥