So back in August/September I wrote a blog post called ‘Increasing The Dosage‘. Now several months later, I’m heading in the opposite directions.
I discussed with my doctor 2 weeks ago the possibility of coming off antidepressants, though I have bad days, in the last 2 years I have learned certain ways to cope to deal with the bad spells. I haven’t had a “bad day” that was caused by my mind in months, my only bad days have actually been the cause of outside factors that now I have no problem kicking those toxic people out of my life. I refuse to let anyone to bring me down that way. Even when people troll me online, I just befriend the ‘Block’ button and move on.
I was on 40 mg of Citalopram for the last few months but I have now been decreased. Over the past 2 weeks though I have had some ‘Down Days’, they’re like a 3/10 when Bad Days can be 7/10 and upward. On down days, I get frustrated and just need to leave online life for a day or two and then I feel normal again. I have now moved to 30 mg and one side effect I have been having, I had it before as well when I switched medication, is that I AM SO TIRED. It’s just an adjustment period, I know it’ll start balancing out again.
My goal is by the end of the year to be down to an even lower dosage and to come off them. There is no shame or nothing wrong with taking antidepressants. I just HATE taking tablets, even pain killers or antibiotics, I hate taking them. I have to drink a gallon of water just so I can swallow them and then since I take my tablets at bedtime, that means I have to pee loads at night when I’m comfy in bed!
So I’ll keep you all updated ♥